the secret

So. The house. I am so excited. I feel like I am on such an emotional rollercoaster, but it just keeps going up and up...

We had that crazy, frantic day Friday and Jonathan got to the house by 5:00 to make an offer. He made an offer and then he decided on the way home to just tell me that we had been outbid. Because I was so intensely passionate about getting that house and because he was afraid if we heard that we didn't get the house while my mom was visiting that it would ruin her visit. And if we did get the house, how excited would I be???? So somehow he convinced me we didn't get the house. And managed to keep up the deception! I am so amazed... and impressed. I could never keep such a secret. I am a total blabbermouth!

Anyway, so he told my mom what was going on because if he didn't tell someone he would just burst! And he heard back from the agent on Monday after we returned from the airport and she told him that all the bids were really close so did he want to submit a better offer? So he did and then had to wait even longer to see if we got the house.

So there I was, completely in the dark and completely crushed that we didn't get the house! But I tried not to talk about it because I didn't want to make him feel bad about it. But my mom and I went shopping on Wednesday with Blue and I just kept talking and talking about the house and its neighborhood and how disappointed I was that we didn't get it. I was also very worried about Jonathan, thinking he had insomnia because he hadn't slept in days (because he was so stressed about the house!) and so I dragged my mom and Blue to Wal-Mart on the way home to pick up some sleeping pills for him.

I walk in the door and he gave me a kiss in the kitchen and said "I love you!" I asked, "What's up with you?" and he handed me a card. Our ten year anniversary (of the day we began dating) is next month and he told me he had bought me an anniversary card but he couldn't wait to give it to me. I said, "Ohhhh, how sweet. I, um, haven't bought a card for you yet, though!" and we laughed.

I opened the card. It was a "Congratulations on Your New Home" card and I thought, he really is serious about getting us a nice house, poor guy. And then I read what he had written inside the card:

I know that traditionally I should get you diamonds for our 10th Anniversary...
but how about a diamond in the rough?

(We got the house!!!)

Love, boy

And I think I read the last line about three times before I burst into tears and asked "What? What? What?" I was so confused. And so emotional. I don't think I have cried that way since the morning he proposed. My hands kept shaking.

That is seriously the most romantic moment ever. Ever.

So we took Mom to see the house today! And I just walked around and around, breathing in the cat smell and dreaming of all of the amazing things we will do to this house. My mom loves it. She was out there weeding the garden and she picked several gorgeous roses and brought them back to the apartment and arranged them in my white creamer and they are so lovely and smell so beautiful... I cannot believe those rose bushes are going to be mine.